Why is it that the things you want from life are the ones that are the hardest to get? Why is it that sometimes the things we want, are the things we should be running from?
Recently, I have been questioning what it is that I need from this life. What it is that I want. I thought I knew, but when I sit down and really think about it, I only know one thing. I don't really know what it is I am here to do. I want to travel, I want to paint, I want to draw, I want to do photography, I want to be an actress, I want to live in France, I want to cook. But are any of these what I am on earth to do? What is my purpose?
Life is the hardest thing any human will have to do. You know when people say "that was the hardest thing I have ever done!"? Well, they are wrong. Life is the biggest challenge and the most difficult thing anyone will come across.
<3 A Wonderland of Thought
I have indeed written about it, believe me:) There's a few lines from Oscar Wilde that would sort you dilemma nicely, you should look him up. I don't think I am wholly alone in my desire, but I know I am of the rare for the particular of thing I seek to pass more than anything else.
ReplyDeleteAnd you are right too (also being too kind again^^) but true that there are so many beautiful uglys out there, and seem to be ever increasing, wanting to look pretty on the outside, but care nothing for their or others internal beauty.
The modelling thing sounds cool, nice way to get some extra cash too. And I'm glad you're not a walking coat hanger like the typical size of a model, it's not healthy. Too skinny is really unsafe for anyone to be. What feels comfortable is best. Have you done anything recently?
I think we all go through the same thing! I think this sums it up rather well for me,
ReplyDeleteListen to your life. See it for the fathomless mystery that it is. In the boredom and pain of it no less than in the excitement and gladness: touch, taste, smell your way to the holy and hidden heart of it because in the last analysis all moments are key moments, and life itself is grace.
-Frederick Buechner
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I think I should too!;) Believe me, I'm working on it as we speak. Hmm, short term the vogue now huh, I can't say I'd know, but I guess that is in line with the increasing level of selfishness there is around these days, not good. I agree with you, that's the whole point, you be with someone to be with them. Don't know about the being put on this world as pairs thing though, fishes climbing from the sea as we were probably weren't to worried about pairing up:P Modelling game quiet at the moment, huh? And by the way, you're pretty and smart ... how big is the stick you use to beat all of the boys away from you with?
ReplyDeleteOH yeah! Now we're paddlepop buddies too;) I like Rainbow, but I have been partial to a banana one too (currently have a box of each residing in my freezer). Yourself?
ReplyDeleteInteresting with the relationship thing, I guess they think they need to try lots of different things. I agree with you, I think there defiantly is more than one for each person, with each being "the one" in different ways, but there still aren't many.
Wow! You sound like you know the game inside out anyways, point me in the direction of your work when your back into it, or not, if you don't want any more compliments:P But now you've said that about your parents I'm only going to do it more now, Miss Wonderful:) Are you reading Holmes? I love it, he's my favourite fiction person ever!
I think you'd need more a baseball bat:D And I don't beleive it about the dry spell either, girl's like you are never without admirers. Although maybe the dry spell is not lack of guys but more lack of worthy ones? Now THAT I could believe with no doubt at all.
I KNOW, right? It's the best artificial flavour that tastes nothing like its natural counterpart but is SOOOO good! True words too, I think you're right. And again right about the amount of self absorbed dropkicks about - they're brought up somehow to think they are the business, when they are just acting like pricks. I think I've gone over before how annoying it is for me to time and time again see these kinds of losers with really nice girls, not really fair.
ReplyDeleteAnd another BAH! again, girls can never be complemented enough, especially lovely ones like your fine self:) But it never gets done enough, one of the reasons a lot of girls are growing up with such low self worth - idiot guys not giving credit when it is always due, so then the girls are FALSELY thinking that they are not good enough or need to do this or do that to make it up to this ridiculous mythical standard.
Haha! Yeah it does feel like it's been forever. Exams are doing my head in at times, but hopefully, within a couple more months, I'll be able to get that first taste of freedom. I agree completely. I wish absorbing information in was as easy as eating-now that's somehting I'm good at:D
ReplyDeleteHow about you? I hope you're doing well too:)
Until then.
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Interesting is the word. I'm glad you agree, seems many girls SAY they know, but still fall for the trojan horses, although is has still continually been my experience that nice guys are still finishing last. Ho hum, if only I was still living in Melbourne;) The blushing exchange continues:D Interesting comment, though, as it is true that more and more people are preferring to chase artificial lives instead of those right in front of them.
ReplyDeleteAhaha! Don't worry, I'd LOVE to change my opinion and agree with you on that one:D Just my experience. I've even had a girl friend say that maybe I need to start being LESS nice, and that might help my chances - can you believe that? haha, still wouldn't make me be supermodel quality unfortunately. I like to think I tick all four of those boxes - but I will have to blush on, again you're too kind, and be a bit more mysterious:) but then again, maybe I am already, and what you think you know about me you don't ... ;) You've got it right, though. The here and now is where's it's at.
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