Never again...

I am never going to drink ever again!!! EVER! If I do, please feel free to kick me!
I went to the Avoca cup yesterday. So, needless to say, I had a bit to drink! It all started at about 10.30 yesterday morning. Yes, I was drinking before 12... I know! BIG mistake!
Anyway, I awoke at 3am this morning, in not such a good way! I managed to gwt back to sleep, and awoke again at 11. As I was getting changed, I noticed several bruises that I have absolutely no idea I got, and also a lot of photo's on my camera I don't remember taking and being in. Now, don't get me wrong here, I don't drink all that often! And I usually don't drink all that much when I do drink, so this morning was really freaky for me!
In other news, Uni sucks! I have so many assignments due, and nowhere near enough time to get them done! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

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Life...

Why is it that the things you want from life are the ones that are the hardest to get? Why is it that sometimes the things we want, are the things we should be running from?

Recently, I have been questioning what it is that I need from this life. What it is that I want. I thought I knew, but when I sit down and really think about it, I only know one thing. I don't really know what it is I am here to do. I want to travel, I want to paint, I want to draw, I want to do photography, I want to be an actress, I want to live in France, I want to cook. But are any of these what I am on earth to do? What is my purpose?

Life is the hardest thing any human will have to do. You know when people say "that was the hardest thing I have ever done!"? Well, they are wrong. Life is the biggest challenge and the most difficult thing anyone will come across.

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Cakes and Wonderful treats...

I just found some absolutely awesome cakes! Yes CAKES!!! It is another blog which was kindly shown to me by a friend! :)

http://samwoh.blogspot.com

Awesome! There is some serious alent there! Check out the ones called "Classic Beauty" "One of my Favourites" "A cake for the true romantics" and "Add a little light".

On another note, it is time for an update!

I went on a little trip away last week! :) I went to Lakes Entrance. I had never been there prior to this trip. I didn't realise how far away it was! close to 5 and a half hours!! I will say one thing, there are some amazing views from the hills around Lakes Entrance! Also, an amazing beach! 90 mile beach. I swear to god, this beach has the most shells I have ever seen in one place! I will upload photo's soon! Promise!
In other areas, I have just started holidays! 2 weeks of pure nothing to do! LOVE IT! I have been writing a little more of my book today! (you know, the one that is like Romeo and Juliet (without the death)?) I am heading to Melbourne this weekend to see the Titanic exhibition and to do a little bit of shopping (including my favourite chocolates). And finally, I have also decided that for the rest of the week, I will be doing nothing! absolutely NOTHING! :D joy!

Hope all is well with everyone reading!

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Writing...

I began writing a book a while ago. It started with me just putting some ideas down on some paper as to what would make a good movie plot. I began to expand on the plot a little and it soon turned into me writing the first quarter of a book!

It is about a girl. It is about a girl who lives with her father on their family orchard. This orchard isn't technically owned by her family anymore as her parents didn't produce a male heir to take over the farm. (It is all to do with a contract made when the family first moved onto the property) At the same time as all of the stuff is happening with the farm, she meets a boy. They fall in love. (This is where the twist is) What the girl doesn't realise is that the boy she falls in love with, is the son of the people who, on a technicallity due to the contract, own her family orchard! (cue dramatic music) I haven't really figured much out after this point, so you will just have to wait! haha

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Ginger Rogers...

A talented, beautiful woman who danced with some of the best! Of course, the one that pops into everyone's mind is Fred Astaire.



Oh the movies they made! How wonderful they were! (Still are really) The ones I must say are my favourites would be "Shall we Dance" and "Follow the Fleet". How simple life seems in the movies! Simple, Wonderful, Happy...

I sometimes wish I was born into that world. (without the war of course)

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I love the city..

Today I spent the day in Melbourne, after an awesome breakfast at my sister's house that is! :) We popped down to see the Grandparents for afternoon tea (scones included), cruised into the city along beach road, zipped over to Lygon street to get a Souvlaki from Lamb's and some chocolates from Koko Black (which I am now currently eating), and then, after a very awesome evening on Lygon street people watching and book shopping, we slowly made our way home through the city and over the bridge. I love Melbourne!

Next week I am planning another visit to the city, just as good as today! I shall be atending the Titanic exhibition, followed by a short shopping expedition into Bourke Street, and finally a coffee in the city (I am not too sure where yet) with my wonderful Uncle Peter. Ahh the joys of Melbourne! :)

Anyhoo, I am off to enjoy the rest of my favourite chocolate!

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Just in case you missed it.....

So, I was watching X-Factor last night and the most amazing guys were on! They were only 17 and 18 and sang like the best artists with autotune! Their names, I hear you ask?
Lazy J and Big Guy. A Slight contradiction because Big Guy is actually the smaller one, but OMG!

http://au.tv.yahoo.com/x-factor/video/-/watch/21689369/lazy-j-and-big-guy/

If you missed it, watch it! they are awesome!!!

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Oh the pain!!!...

I feel like the biggest idiot in the world right now!! Let's start from the beginning shall we?!
Yesterday began as a seemingly normal day. I woke up 15 minutes late (the alarm clock had set itself for 8pm, not am) so I rush through my morning routine. I arrive at Uni 10 minutes ahead of schedule (I didn't speed at all...ok, so maybe a little... ok, so I sped the entire way to Uni!) I arrive in the lecture theatre and proceed to have the usual chat to some of my friends that are taking the same class. The lecturer walks in and has a bit of a chat to some people abou thte assignment coming up and then proceeds to begin with the lecture. I diligently begin my note taking, as per usual, and listen to the questions popping up about different things. We get to half way through the lecture and have a 10 minute break.
I step outside the lecture theatre to have a drink of water and a stretch (those chairs really aren't comfortable at all!) Like I said, a completely ordinary seeming day!

I walked back into the lecture theatre with my friends and begain making my way down the steps and back to my seat. And that is when it happened. Bang. (Well it was actually more of a twist, crunch, crack and thud)

I miss-judged a step. I twisted my ankle. I sat down in the closest seat possible because I was in shock. I put my head between my legs as I began to feel like I was going to pass out. I woke a few moments later to find that my head was now resting ont he seat in front of me. And that is when the pain hit.

OH. MY. GOODNESS.! It was like a had just been stabbed in the ankle with a fishing knife! I picked up my books and got myself out of the lecture theatre. There is a couch just outside the lecture theatre (literally just outside the door) I sat down on the couch along with 5 of my friends. I was ok for a while and told them to go back into the lecture because it was just about to start again. I finally got them all to go back in (I didn't want them to see me cry (pathetic I know, but I had just rolled my ankle and I was a little embarassed!)). I got out my phone and began to text my mother to come and pick me up, that is when my vision began to get blurry again and the ringing in my ears started. I passed out again. Only this time I woke up on the floor. I was super confused when I woke up.

I found my phone again and sent mum the message I had been trying to write before. She didn't respond so I sent a message to my sister on facebook (she is 30 years old and facebooks more than I do! (She had the day off of work because she is sick)) She was with my mum and they came and picked me up! We went to the hospital and I spent the rest of the day in the waiting room, x-ray room and emergency room!

I didn't break anything, which I am extremely thankful for, but the pain is just about killing me! And my ankle is the size of a grapefruit! (I am not kidding either, my sister got a grapefruit yesterday and measured it! my ankle came up a 2 milimeters smaller in circumference!)

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Well that was unexpected...

So, Michael* came over last night. He was a little upset. He didn't really say much, and he was really calm! REALLY calm! I was a little worried when he showed up. I was expecting him to be angry, not like extreme angry, but upset angry. But he wasn't. We just sat on the couch and watched some movies. I asked about what had happened with Allison*. He said that he had asked her about what she said, she admitted everything. He was really angry with her. He had left her sitting in a cafe alone! that is how angry he was. (he did explain to her that we are really close because we are best friends before he left) She asked him to choose between her and me, and he said that he never would. So, he left her at the cafe... by herself. I did feel a little bit for her (no one wants to be left alone in a cafe). He refused to talk about it after that. I just let it go, he isn't a person who responds well to being pushed. He will talk in his own time.
After he told me what happened we just sat there for a while. We watched another movie and didn't talk much.
When he left he seemed ok.
He called this morning to ask if he could come over again tonight. We are having Fish and Chips and then watching Criminal Minds. I think he is trying to keep himself busy. When I asked what he was doing today he listed a whole heap of things. He isn't usually a person who is very busy (ever).
So what happened was really unexpected! I was not thinking he would be so calm, not at all! But I am happy that I still have my best friend, relatively in-tact.

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Winter....

Winter is my favourite season. It rains in winter, and I think that is why I love it so. Rain is one of a few of my favourite things (cue The Sound of Mucic "These are a few of my favourite things...")
Why winter, you might ask? Well, winter is the only time of year it is acceptable to stay in bed until all hours because it is cold, Winter means rain; rain so heavy that your clothing clings to your body like it is holding on for dear life, Winter is the time when you can sit in front of a fire with a book and a blanket. Winter is the only time of year that the weather does not effect me. I like it cold. Perhaps that is why I like the rain? (I swear in a previous life I was a polar bear or something! Maybe a penguin!?)
Winter: my favourite season, my favourite weather, and my favourite time passing activity, reading.
Rain. I love rain. It's raining as I type. I can hear it on the roof. (I am struggling to sit here any longer, I want to be outside in the rain)

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Why I could just...GAH!

Have you ever had one of those nights where everything just goes wrong? So, I need to ellaborate a little!
My best friend has just started seeing this girl. That's fine, girlfriends are something I often meet! seriously, every month he is introducing another one! But this one is different. And I don't mean different in a good way. Sure, there have been attempts in the past, but nothing like this.
Michael* and I have been best friends for ages! as long as I can remember! We talk about everything! LITERALLY! So you can imagine my slight worry when he didn't call me for about a week. So, I finally get fed up after leaving a dozen messages and go over to his place! (Again, this is nothing unusual (everything, remember)) I knock on the door and his dad answers (he still lives at home). He smiles as usual and welcomes me in. He calls up the stairs for Michael*. A few moments later Michael* comes down and smiles as if the week just passed without any communication hadn't happened! I was like "OK, WTF!?!?!"
We sit down and start talking when I hear a "Michael?"* come down the stairs. The smile which had been on his face for a while now vanished. Again I was like "OK, WTF?!?!?!?" He walked over to the stairs and waited. A girl came down, she was admittedly very attractive. Michael* introduced us and she sat down on the couch opposite mine. Michael* said he had tohelp his dad int he kitchen and walked into the other room. The first words this girl said to me were (I kid you not) "So you are the bitch who wants my boyfriend?" (you can imagine my face! (meanwhile in my head a little voice is going "Excuse me??? Excuse me?! You did not just say that to my face!"))
I walked into the kitchen without saying anything to, lets call her Allison. I walked into the kitchen without sayong anything to Allison and told Michael* that I had to go. (I didn't want to be there anymore!) Michael* was a little confused, I could understand why. I said goodnight to his dad and walked out the back door. (A coward I know!) Michael* walked me down the drive to my car (the one mentioned in the last post (oh I love that car))
I drove away, whith Michael* still looking rather confused.
I got home and sat staring at the wall for a while. My phone rang, it was Michael*, but I couldn't answer it.
He sent me a text message asking if I was ok. I don't know if he knows what she said or if he was just trying to figure out why I left...?
Anyway, I am now sitting here staring at my computer screen. It has taken me a rather long time to write this. in fact, it has taken over an hour!

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Oh the fastness of it all!!

I went for a drive in my car today. I haven't been for a drive in a while. Yes, I drive my car to and from University, but other than that, I haven't really been using it lately, that is until today!
I was sitting on the couch watching some television, when I glanced out the window and spotted my car sitting outside. I was thinking about the last time I drove my car when my mother rang and reminded me of an appointment I had in town in 2 hours time. I took that as a bit of a sign. I only live 15 minutes away from the edge of town, so I didn't really need to leave yet. I grabbed my keys and headed out to my vehicle. Oh how I had missed actually seeing the car. Sure, I look at it everyday, but I didn't really see it.
I unlocked my car and it beeped twice at me, almost joyful. I think it knew what was coming next.
I had forgotten just how fast my vehicle went. I mean, it's not a Lamborghini Gallardo, but it goes fast enough for me.
As I was driving, thinking about nothing in particular and trying to decide on what shoes I was going to wear tomorrow, My phone started buzzing away. I pulled over and answered. (It was my mother reminding me that my appointment was in half an hour)
I drove to my appointment rather happy that I had driven my car. (And also rather happy that I hadn't been pulled over for speeding) :)
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oh, p.s. this is what my car looks like! The only difference between this one and mine are the rims. mine has 17" black rims with a chrome lip! :) (and before the questions start, the purple neons are coming soon! ;) I am kidding....maybe....)

THE car. (and, no, the capitals are not a mistake)

THE car of my dreams, THE car I will one day own, THE car that I will love and cherish more than my current boyfriend loves and cherishes his pride and joy (his car is wonderful, but this post isn't about him). THE car which I can not afford right now, but will be able to afford in the future :)
What is THE car I hear you ask? well, I will get to that.
THE car of my dreams is not what you would expect from me. You would think a red sports convertable of some sort? well, no, you would be wrong. Maybe a new flashy Mercedes or BMW? wrong again. Or perhaps even a little Japanese peice similar to the ones on Fast and Furious (all versions included). Well, I wouldn't mind one of those, and I am currently driving a slightly modified 1997 Toyota Celica, but moving on. NO, none of these options are what I am talking about!!
THE car of my dreams, THE one car that I will own for a lifetime, after I can afford to buy it and possibly have to restore it if I can't find one in a good enough condition, is.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
A 1967 Chevrolet Impala 4-door sedan. Yes, you read right. A 1967 Chevrolet Impala. Why the 1967 you may ask, why not the 1970, or even the 1968?? Well, the answer: I just don't like them as much!
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Hoping and Waiting!

Today I went for an interview with a company (can't name names) about a permanent modelling position for one of their fashion lines to be released next year!!!! Needless to say, I am a little excited!!! But I am also very nervous! It is not an overly big deal if I don't get the position, I do enjoy the freedom of doing work randomly and at my will, but this would be an amazing oportunity! WOW! haha my nerves are through the roof at the moment! :D

Shoes, Shoes, Shoes!!! Oh, and some jewellery! :)

I think I might be a shoe addict....let me explain it a little better.

Whenever I am about to do a photo shoot, the first thing I look at are the shoes. Whenever I am walking casually down the street, I look at people's shoes. When I walk into a shopping centre, the first place I go is the shoe store. So, yeah I am a shoe addict.

You are probably thinking now, why on earth has this come up as a topic for discussion? Well, it's confession time! I got myself a new pair of shoes today. Technically they're not shoes, they are ankle boots. That means it doesn't count towards the addiction right? Because they're not really 'shoes'...? yeah, I thought not.

So, you might be asking yourself, just how many shoes do you own exactly? Well, anyone who knows me will tell you that I am a rival to Carrie Bradshaw. Yes, that many!! So, i though I would include a few images of my shoes so you can judge for yourself! Enjoy :) Oh, by the way, most of the images are from the shop where I got the shoes from, my camera has been missing in action for a few days now so I can't take photo's of my own!! grr!

These are a few of my favourites! :)

now before you go thinking that all I wear is shoes, you are wrong! Look at the title! I wear some jewellery too! Hahaha I kid! I am a bit of a clothes addict as well! What can I say? I love shopping! :)

How crappy can one person feel?!

Well, the answer to that is EXTREMELY!

The Arts

So today I went to the local art gallery. My favourite ever peice of art is in this gallery. It is by the artist Solomon J. Solomon. It is called Ajax and Cassandra. Yes, it is a slightly controversial peice of art work, but I just love it! The softness of the paint, the entire emotion of the peice and the fact that it is in my local art gallery! I have sat and studied this peice many time before today, but it seems that every time I sit in front of it, I see more. The way the smoke curls across the front of the image, the way Ajax's foot is bent on the pillar, the way the cloth is over Cassandra's body. Every time it is something different. Of course there are other peices which I do enjoy, but Ajax and Cassandra is my favourite!

My French thoughts!

I miss my french friends dearly!! They are all so very far away in France! I am looking forward to travelling over there again soon, but alas, I need money to do that! Money: the root of all problems! Beleive me, if I had money, I would probably live there! Anyhoo, I was speaking with one of my french friends yesterday on Skype (the best invention ever as far as I am concerned!) and he mentioned that they are planning their annual ski trip for this year (they go skiing every winter for new years and several weeks into the new year). The last trip I took to France I was lucky enough to accompany them on the ski trip and spend the best few weeks of my life skiing with my best friends! Mind you, I had never been skiing prior to this trip so I am sure it was very commical for everyone else (they did laugh a lot! maybe it was at me after all!) I will say that I did have many bruises at the end of the three and a half weeks! But back onto topic, my friend mentioned that they were planning the annual ski trip. He invited me to come over, but alas, the money issue again! I am sad! :( I would love to go to France to go skiing for the winter! France, tu me manques!!!!!!!!!

Holidays!!!! :)

So, I am now officially on holidays for the next 4 weeks! I am so happy! I do not have to think about Assignments, Exams or Tests!!!! And this is where I reach the problem, what exactly do I do with the next 4 weeks? I have considered all of the usual options; spending all of the money I have to my name on shoes and clothing, going on a road trip with with my 2 best friends, and then attempting madly to get my books for next semester the day before we start again. But I am a little over the usual and need something a bit different! Any of your suggestions are more then welcome!!

Last night I watched the first dvd of season 4 of Supernatural....again! I am a bit excited, season 5 comes out on dvd here soon!!!! YAY! (And yes, I have got my copy on hold already! (This is why I have started season 4 again!)) Supernatural is my favourite show! It is a show which is directed at a very specific audience, which I am a very proud member of, and is a slight little bit far fetched, but hey! It's pretty much just awesome! :D

The other movie I watched very recently was Amelie. It is a wonderful french movie which I absolutely adore! But then, I do love just about everything French! Including the wonderful landscape, villages and the fantastic french people I know! (I love you all! (Et oui, Bertrand, je t'aime le plus et toi etes mon prefere!)) I will be back over there very soon, I promise!

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Ok, so that's not how I thought it works....

So, I have just finished all of my exams for this semester and I'm a bit excited. One of my friends was sitting this exam at the same time I was, he was actually sitting in front of me! As the end of the exam was getting closer, I was looking forward to talking with him about how he went with the impossibly hard question number 4, which none of us were prepared for judging by the looks on all of our faces, and about what we had been talking abou the night before. He said he wanted to catch up after the exam because we hadn't seen eachother for a few weeks. So the examiner tells us that our time is up and we all put our pens down. The examiner collects our papers and we all stand to leave. I look to where my friend was sitting and he is gone, he has practically ran from the exam hall without a second glance. Granted, the conversation we had had the previous night was a little akward, but we are friends and he isn't the sort of person who minds an akward conversation. In fact, he was the one who started the conversation! So I am, needless to say, a little offended and a bit sad. I was really looking forward to catching up with him! I know that you are all probably thinking that something might have been wrong, but it wasn't. How do I know? Well, because I just saw his mother in the shopping centre!

Something Different

Yes, I know I posted this morning, but i must say this: There is nothing more annoying than a person who thinks they are the best thing on the face of the earth and expects everything for nothing! I was having a late lunch with one of my best girl-friends today at a very popular restaurant, possibly the most popular for where I live, when this woman walked in and asked to speak to a manager. That was fine, not a problem! When the manager arrives, the woman looks...agitated. My friend and I return to our discussion of her latest boyfriend and how wonderful he is (I have met him, and I must say he is pretty wonderful!). We are talking about this again for maybe a minute when the woman begins to raise her voice to the manager. The manager, trying to remain calm with the woman, asks if she would "please step outside, ma'am, and we will discuss this further." The woman turns a very deep red and screams, yes screams, at the, what I'm sure was, the top of her lungs at the manager! I look at my best friend and she looks back at me with the same horror! What on earth could this woman possibly have to be screaming this loudly about? answer: "I want you to accept my daughter's resume and I want you to start her working tomorrow!" yes, this was a mother, screaming, who wanted her daughter to work in this particular restaurant because it is the best....I understand this, but screaming about it...and if the daughter wanted it that badly then she should have been there herself!

Anyway, the woman did step outside and the manager came in a little while later. He apologised profusely for the interuption to our lunch and looked highly embarrassed that it had happened on his watch. We both assured him that it was O.K. and that there was no problem. We continued eating our lunch with no other interuptions, thank goodness! I must say though, it was the topic for discussion for the rest of the afternoon....until we went shoe shopping that is! :)

my thoughts for this particular morning:

So, I was sitting on my couch this morning watching a morning chat show and an interview with Taylor Lautner and Kristen Stewart came on. I will admit now, I am a Twilight saga fan. Though I do prefer the books to the movies, I think the movies are a fantastic representation. (And really, when you get to look at Taylor Lautner and Robert Pattinson for about 2 hours no one is complaining!) Back to the story. The interview came on and I was confused. Everyone has been saying that Kristen Stewart is really non-responsive in interviews and is very dull about her answers. This is not what I saw! Kristen was more than willing to answer questions. She spoke about the movies with a sense of attachment, and I also noted she seemed to eminate a sense of comfort in what she was doing. Maybe when Kristen first shot to fame with the movie Twilight, there was some uncomfortable interviews and what not, but who wouldn't be a little uncomfortable with everyone seeming to know everything about you within the space of a few weeks?? All of this considered, I think it is safe to say that Kristen is adjusting well. As for Taylor Lautner, it would seem that fame suits him and that dealing with it does seem to come naturally! Though, I am sure it has been very much a roller-coaster ride for him also.

Continuing with my Twilight saga train of thought, I am immediatly drawn to the up and coming movie, Eclipse. Now, I am a big fan of the book Eclipse. I think it would be safe to say it is my favourite of the four. (With New Moon coming in second and Twilight and Breaking Dawn coming in an even third.) If the book is anything to go by, then the movie should be fantastic!
Now, at this point it is usually where people ask "which team are you?" I am going to give the very disappointing answer of Team Switzerland. I can not make myself choose between the two unconditional and eternal loves of Bella's life. Though, I will say, I was very happy when Bella and Jacob did finally kiss when I was reading the books! (The real kisss, the one before Jacob leaves to go and fight the onslaught of new born vampires) Anyway, the movie should be fantastic!

On the Vampire train of thought, The Vampire Diaries! not the TV show, but the books. (In case you haven't guessed already, I am a book fan!) The Vampire Diaries is wonderful! Lisa J. Smith, you are a genius! :)

Supernatural, yes the TV show with the Winchester brothers (Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki). As far as I am concerned, you can not go past a good sitting of Supernatural! I own the first four seasons on dvd, and I can not wait fot the fifth season to come out on dvd! Supernatural is the one thing I religiously watch when it is on TV and get upset about if i miss it! Yes, I am slightly obsessed with the story of the Winchester's and their battle to save humanity. It has nothing to do with Jenses or Jared at all......well, maybe it has a little to do with them....ok a lot! But I do love the story as well! And their car! My goodness! Now I've never really been a car kind of girl, but give me a black 1967 Chevrolet Impala any day! I will quite happily take it and care for it! :)

The Big Bang Theory. Amazing, Funny, Smart and the cutest geniuses I have ever seen!

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